Category: loss

My Mountain

Life’s journey can feel like a mountain
Climbing step by step by step
It’s hard and never ending
No matter how far you get
In rain, the path is tricky
In sun, the views immense
The common paths a bit easier
Your own way can be more tense
You can put yourself in danger
Edge out on a ledge to find
A partner for the climbing
A tether to which you bind
Taking risks can lead to heartache
A slip from your precipice
But the gain is worth the wager
To meet your one a granted wish
Should you stumble by the wayside
If you lose you way at night
Remember your days in sunshine
The highs make life worth a fight
As your days grow short in number
As you reach an aged summit peak
You can rest assured your efforts
Will give you everything you seek
Looking far back down the pathway
The tough times never look so bad
You can bask in your personal glory
Enjoy the great life that you’ve had

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Hateful decree

You’ve thrown down the gauntlet
You’ve made me pick up the fight
You’ve forced our hands into conflict
Through your dark words tonight

Don’t remember the start of it
Can’t forget what you said
Didn’t want to be at war
But now your rage is in my head

How can we get past this anger?
We can’t just put this to bed
You’ve said you don’t love me
I’m broken, I’m pained, I’m upset

What’s the point if that’s true?
Why bother if you hate me
Our battles will just get worse
It ends, after your hateful decree

So I’m not going to fight you
Instead let’s both break free
Hope resilient, still resides within
To find someone, to live a life lovingly

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My heart repaired

Getting better
Life is getting better
The days grow lighter
My worries grow lighter
My troubles aired
My heart repaired
At last I feel whole
Filled the hole
That you left.

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I had fallen

Sure footed I rise
Take my place
Stand tall

Your love removed
Heart ripped open
I had fallen

The floor was cold
My cure remote
Prone, abandoned

Time passed slowly
Each day hurt
Pain became familiar

One morning the sun
Shed gentle warmth
Spring was coming

Now, sure footed I rise
Take my place
Stand tall
But I hold onto my pain

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Love from the shadows

Look into the shadows, what do you see?
A threat, a fear, someone staring at thee?
Focus on your demons, what do they say?
Do they set your objectives and limit your day?
It’s here in darkness in the corner of your room
Where deepest hate resides, and nightmares loom
You may feel locked in, bound to carry your woes
But no path is closed off, you’re not left to your foes
There are no walls to your prison, look up, you’ll see
You’re only stopping yourself, let go and you are free
Free to clear out your demons, banish your fear
Free to bring light into your life, to set a path clear
Of the shackles of history, the guilt of what’s gone
To reach to be your potential, not what you came from
Look into the shadows, and with love shining bright
Remove your limits, your echoes, awake from the night

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She Rises

Hunched shoulders
Clenched fists
Slow progress
Against the wind
Road ahead folded
Back on itself,
The journey long
The sky falls black
The storm rages strong
Why expect progress?
Maelstrom holds you
Static, wasted effort, burning legs
Heavy, weighed down
Carrying the burden of all
Stumble in the night
Closed, clenched
Angry, resentful
Sodden, drenched
Eyes to the floor
You can stand no more

Pause, still.
Blink of light
Shining star
Breaks the night
She rises
All change
Heart grows

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Distant Love

My heart is broken
Not for lack of repair
A part was removed
It’s no longer there

It’s gone overseas
To a place far away
Far cross the oceans
And there it will stay

A heart not intact
Still functions it seems
He’s gone from my country
But lives in my dreams

He’s made a new life
Has a family himself
Is successful and happy
Good health, Good wealth

But he’s not here to wrestle
To chide, tease and to play
To be brothers in arms, stand
Not let life get in the way

I miss you my brother
And the years fail to heal
The gap in my heart
Your absence I feel.

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Momentary Love

Street scene, approaching lady light
She didn’t smile when she passed
Walked right on by, hope as I might
No turning to admit a love that would last

We made no contact, no awareness
But still there’s something yearning in me
A connection likely just of the eye
No way that this momentary love might be

How can I feel so soon?
This is no learing letching stare
To my love, this echo does not compare
This is a function of a heart laid bare

Raw nerves floundering at my surface
Open, exposed to every passerby
Indiscriminately seeking purpose
Can’t turn off feeling but I try

Love having been flexed is strong
But with no you, has no where to go
So as I walk into work on Tuesday
I fall momentarily for people I don’t know

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I’m not your destiny

I love you and feel loved too
But you will grow beyond me
I’m not the final one for you
I’d like it, but I’m not your destiny

Don’t hide our difference
Right now this hurts
Admit the apparent gap
Admit the need to divert

See it for what it is
Identify and isolate
Long term problems
Don’t procrastinate

Or else question all
When all else is good
Our love has been true
But we’ve tried all we could

We will be friends still
It’s hard to love and let go
Hard to do the right thing
Heart holds on, denies what I know

I love you and feel loved too
But you will grow beyond me
I’m not the final one for you
I’d like it, but I’m not your destiny

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What we had was love

I will take the pain
If that means what we had was love
A furrowed brow and lack of sleep I will keep
If that means what we had was love
I will accept a broken heart, my world torn apart
If that means what we had was love
Retain memories precious, despite making me nauseas
If that means what we had was love

For if it wasn’t love and this is for naught
I won’t be able to face the brutal emotional onslaught

I will wish you well, not cast into hell
If that means what we had was love
Forgive your changed mind, try to be kind
If that means what we had was love
I’ll face the friends we shared, alone, torment shown
If that means what we had was love
Find a way to feel once more, a loving encore
If that means what we had was love

For if it wasn’t love and this was all a lie
I will lock myself away, and hope will die

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