Choose a positive path
Drip drip drip
Constant the prod to wake
To never settle into sleep
Unconscious thought to take
Tug tug tug
Threads of anxious plans
What ifs and wherefores
Confidence fails to stand
Lost lost lost
The calming blanket gone
Nerves left bare
Blackboard with nails upon
Tap tap tap
Can’t escape the source
Peace no more
Blue light tortuous force
Lancelot lays down his helmet
Slowly takes off his shield and plate
Hangs up his sword by its hilt
and gives thanks for his fate
Eyes to the heavens
He breathes, relieved and free
No more into the battle
He has forged his destiny
By being bold and courageous
Taking to the field with might
By bearing arms and being open
He has won this epic fight
With soft word and observation
By learning what he needs
When to give and be beholden
When to cease all worthy deeds
He progressed towards his grail
To find a love that truly gave
Meaning and feeling to his actions
Without a damsel he had to save
A partner for the journey
A companion, muse and more
Someone to inspire life learning
To adventure with and explore
Well now the first quest is completed
He has found the one he sought
She is glorious in her powers
With her he wants for nought
So he hangs his well used armour
He retires the weapons used thus far
And looks to a bright new future
A new quest alongside this new star
She is the one, she is his true love
But even after such a search
There is much to do to relationship form
He really wants to prove his worth
It’s a different battle starting
With heart filled over the brim
So happy, warm and contented
He has a new passion within
A single tear rolls down my cheek
Lying in bed no will to wake
Thinking of you and that you’re not here
For all the difference it will make
There’s happiness deep within me
A sense that we can be whole
That you are my forever one
That my quest has found its goal
My heart heaves and I sigh
My body aches for a lack of you
My mind races through all you are
Agitated, addicted, nothing to do
No way to scratch the itch
Nothing to do to slake the thirst
Being in love is to be blessed
But in your absence it’s like being cursed
Headphones on, the stairs I descend
Dreaming of the working days end
Step onto empty littered street
With no one around to greet
Turn and head for the northern tube
Past the fractured bus stop queue
Pause for coffee to ease morning low
Attempt to break the silence with hello
The barista doesn’t want to know
Hands over the cup and leaves you contactless now go
Train filled with vacant stares
Commuters who aren’t really there
Minds away from where they are
Thoughts of escape to take them off afar
Grey bubbles passing from A to Z
Repeated patterns from first breath to bed
Eyes fixed on the slatted floor,
Standing, waiting, but what for?
Didn’t we all want more?
Cold and contactless huddled lonely by the door
How many souls wake
On Valentines day
And wish the next
Twenty four hours go away
The focus on lovers
Plans to be open hearted
Depresses the lonely
Or where love has departed
Those people see gaps
A lack of love, card or cure
For their emptiness feeling
The pain they endure
For them no red roses
No chocolate treat
No dinner together
No-one for a secret meet.
They’re reminded they’re solo
With a partner vacancy
Their independence questioned
As spinster complacency.
You must find someone
To find your real purpose
Shout the masses and billboards
So loud that it hurts us.
If you wake on the fourteenth
Without significant others
Seemingly lonesome
Don’t hide under the covers
Go out and stand tall
Look your friends in the eye
You’re amazing, just you
You don’t need a guy
Or a girl or a partner
Unless that’s what you choose
And even then couples
Mix joy and the blues
So remember right now
Candied versions of love
Are not the reality
Cos the reality’s tough
You decide what you want
Be strong, sweet or sappy
Don’t let others decide
What you need to be happy
There will come a time, you’ll see
When love won’t be a source of fear
There’s a future where you’ll be free
To open your heart to someone near
The scars of aching breaks and falls
Can heal and hurt be wiped clean
Believe in a love that never stalls
Trust, you’ll find what life can mean
Why was it that you said
Just before we went to bed
You feared we might not be
That tomorrow night we’d see
If a week of texts and calls
Had any real grounds at all
How could you think it so
How is it you don’t know
That while we’ve not had time
Cannot prove that we’re aligned
There’s a bond between us two
A passion in me for you
Reasons to believe this match
Will all doubts dispatch
And that while we wait to see
If this will last, you for me
And me for you, in love
Believe this might be enough
A need to rest, mind at ease
To reach the island sanctuary
Beach, sun, palm trees
A return to self as primary
For self care, a chance to repair
To remove the grinding stress
Time to observe, breathe in fresh air
Clear mind, remove guilt and regrets
De-knot shoulders, feel alive
Reflect, work out what’s true
From fear cease to hide
Get back to being just you
Consider the solace in another
Think about what they might bring
Deliberate a life together
Maybe change everything
Seek a place to be calm
Oasis in a sea of strain
Safe, away from harm
Recover out of the rain
Connect as one with me
Bound in thought and deed
Hold onto one another
In our bond, be freed
Talk about what you want
Released from all constraint
Trust that you’ll be heard
All thoughts can be explained
Believe in what we’ve got
Believe this might be true
It’s you I want to know
My heart is full of you
Some things in life are simple
Some out of your control
You can overthink it all you like
For a lot, you’ve not got a decision making role
But there are some steps more considered
That result in big forks in the road
Where a choice will lead to change
Build paths anew, make other paths explode
The pros and cons can be listed
You have to weigh the good and the bad
Consider the impacts on love ones
Maybe gamble to find the thing you never had
It’s not possible to see the outcome
You can see the damage to be caused
So such decisions need time
Not taken lightly, they cannot be forced.
In the midst of a dilemma
Overcome by concerns and fear
Sometimes the decisions are still simple
Follow you heart, be yourself, keep hope near
Be all you can be
Try to be happy
You will do the right thing.
Quest for Love 
Love Listens