Then along came a girl

One too many mornings
Same old routine
Autopilot sequence
Eyes open nothing seen

Processing through each week
Same old routine
Day after long day
Eyes open nothing seen

Years slide away unnoticed
Same old routine
Survival no revival
Eyes open nothing seen

Then along came a girl

Clarity.
In a moment of her beauty
Emotional stumble
Structures tumble

Elevated.
Life from other views
Enriched with colour
Kaleidoscope hues

No sequence
Don’t let patterns interfere
Chase your love
Anything, everything, to hold her near

Empty Seat

A journey through life
Is best traveled with friends
But needs an observer
Who is there to the end
Someone to talk to
Someone who cares
Someone to hear you
Someone who shares
The highs and the lows
The good and the bad
A person who knows you
And the journey you’ve had
When young it’s a parent
Who watches you race
Who is there willing you on
With a smile on their face
There’s a time when it’s mates
Who have got your back
Who go out, onward, upward
And keep you on track
Then maybe a girlfriend
Then maybe a wife
Someone committed
To help build a life
But
At times this collapses
All history lost
A death, separation
A fall out, divorce
These times can be tough
With your audience gone
It’s a lot to adjust
At your table for one
In these time you remember
How it felt in the past
With your mum and dad
With mates having a blast
It all seems so distant
Joys that will never repeat
As you sit staring forlorn
At a cold empty seat
But these times can improve
All you need is a plan
And you’ll soon find yourself
Together, holding a hand
See the trick is be open
Don’t go hiding away
You walk past twenty new friends
On your journey each day
Just one of those people
On a day coming soon
Might come in and sit down
At the chair in your room

It’s about you, not a man

Stop with this folly
You’ve not thought it through
You’re processing through life
Because it’s what is expected of you
A proposal, a marriage,
A baby, and then
You’re done, you’re complete?
That’s what the system pretends
Life isn’t that simple,
Look at the end to your path
It’s not happy ever after
It’s happy after graft
Working at relationships
Working to earn a crust
Trying to be your best
You have to work, you must
So take a moment to think
Pause write a plan
You can build up to happy
It’s about you, not a man

Beginning of Nothing

This is the beginning
The beginning of nothing
Everything has changed
It’s the absence of truth
And nothing remains
Everything has changed

Born of the silence
In the darkness of loss
Everything has changed
It’s the birth of a new hope
Born of millions of half thoughts
Everything has changed

Solutions begin to take shape
Skyward elation takes over
Everything has changed
This could be the right path
Rocket fuelled elevation
Everything has changed

Light years from ground zero
With the stars up ahead
Everything has changed
Full of love, hope and rapture
Everything is possible
Everything has changed

A Father’s Love

My girls are amazing
And as I sit on the beach
It’s clear to me, Everything,
I want is well within reach
I want them to be happy
I want them to be kind
To be what they desire
Strong in body and mind
As they play in the sea
Maybe hey don’t know
All they could be
And how they could grow
They can use all the have
Or only one part
Just go and be happy
Live life with your heart
Pull together, be sisters
Both different and the same
Be independent of thought
Stand up for your name
Know you are loved
Unconditionally
By your dad who is proud
Of you both unendingly

Love ABC

I’ve done it again
Jumped back to the start
Jumped back to the point
When my life fell apart
My pattern resumed
Like B, C follows A
Leads me to sorrow
Drains my joy away
My A is a longing
My B is falling in love
My pattern then pauses
And when seen from above
There’s happiness, belonging
A real sense of calm
Connection and comfort
“We will come to no harm”
Then a trial comes along
That gives rise to C
Where the person I’m with
Turns away, abandoning me
There is sometimes a conflict
Sometimes not even that
But it’s always so painful
Like I’m under attack.
I’m open to growing
Behaviours rearranged
If my pattern could alter
And my ending be changed
There’s hope, and I’m trying
I can break ABC
I will find my true love
And become ABD

Tears Flood the Deck

Waves of life sweep relentless
Breaking against the brow of man
Tears flood the deck then doldrums
Enjoy the sun and good times when you can
Set your course and watch for icebergs
Pick a crew and give them trust
Check yourself when the winds feel worse
Don’t turn back unless you must
Seas will be rough at times, don’t panic
You know yourself, your crew, your ship
If the horizon seems to vanish
Consult your map take time to think
Out on the ocean you’re always turning
To take the wind or avoid the rocks
A single line plotted out on paper
Is really twists and turns and shocks
We’re all out guiding a vessel
No one knows much more than you
Stick to your course, your goal, you mission
That promised land will come into view

Unconditional Conditional

You made the unconditional conditional
When you said to Mark so long
Told my brother he didn’t belong
When you took my mothers hurt
And used it to deny his birth

You made me question the unquestionable
When you said you’d been failed
Made out the doctors efforts were curtailed
When you sued to make it right
And used lawyers in a compensation fight

You made me realise the unrealised
When you failed to enquire
About me, the kids, life. You raised my ire
When you’d done so little before
And took all attention, always expecting more

You made me decide the undecidable
When you showed me you didn’t care
And wanted an audience from me there
Didn’t need a son, with a new life begun
And we’re always taking, no love, no fun

You made the unconditional conditional

Looks Like Summer

Looks like summer outside
From the space in my head
The light through the curtains
Helps me get out of bed
It’s warm where I’m laying
But the promise of sun
Sees me throw back the covers
And put my clothes on
It’s a while since I’ve ventured
From my safe shielded home
I’ve been laid up for winter
Since she left me alone
But enough introspection
Let’s stop the cold nights
I will resume my journey
Go see summer’s sights
No matter the season
Be it fair, fall, or rain
I will see the summer
And feel better again
I’ve cast off my covers
Ready once more
To enter the fray
To walk out through my door

A Kindness

A kindness unrequested has chipped my veneer
I’m crying in Camden, I’m smiling through tears
A kindness surprising has caught me off guard
And softened the surface I use to look hard
The chip in my shield lets the world inward see
How my heart lies in pieces and my mind isn’t free
A moment of friendly is all it seems to take
To make me feel alone in this time since the break
I’m grateful for kindness, for happy, for making a friend
But can’t help but feel lonely, in tears, ‘til I mend

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