Choose a positive path
Chattering voices
Hammer at my brow
Bickering rivals
In endless bitter row
Conflicting views
To stay or to go
To love or to leave
To say yes or cry no
Imagined responses
To arguments not made
What ifs of harrowing hurt
To statements unsaid
Resolution remote
Cross our unspoken divide
Courage gathered to try
Now tempted to hide
Enter the fray
Start talking your mind
Explain how you feel
Gentle, forthright and kind
Dappled light
Enters mild and meek
Fleeting taste of
The solace you seek
Didn’t know we weren’t complete
Didn’t see the vacant space
That was there for you all along
Your new position at our place
Sleeping under the table
Curled up by me on the couch
Your den nestled in the corner
Leads, toys and training pouch
Hectic greetings of an evening
“Old man” walking off to bed
Proud of you playing at the dog park
Images for all time in my head
You’ll forever be a Sanders
You’ll always be our loving Miska
Thanks for all you’ve given us
The dog we’d always wished for
I will miss you in the morning
Your company I will grieve
Dog biscuits in my pocket
Broken heart upon my sleeve
Drip drip drip
Constant the prod to wake
To never settle into sleep
Unconscious thought to take
Tug tug tug
Threads of anxious plans
What ifs and wherefores
Confidence fails to stand
Lost lost lost
The calming blanket gone
Nerves left bare
Blackboard with nails upon
Tap tap tap
Can’t escape the source
Peace no more
Blue light tortuous force
Lancelot lays down his helmet
Slowly takes off his shield and plate
Hangs up his sword by its hilt
and gives thanks for his fate
Eyes to the heavens
He breathes, relieved and free
No more into the battle
He has forged his destiny
By being bold and courageous
Taking to the field with might
By bearing arms and being open
He has won this epic fight
With soft word and observation
By learning what he needs
When to give and be beholden
When to cease all worthy deeds
He progressed towards his grail
To find a love that truly gave
Meaning and feeling to his actions
Without a damsel he had to save
A partner for the journey
A companion, muse and more
Someone to inspire life learning
To adventure with and explore
Well now the first quest is completed
He has found the one he sought
She is glorious in her powers
With her he wants for nought
So he hangs his well used armour
He retires the weapons used thus far
And looks to a bright new future
A new quest alongside this new star
She is the one, she is his true love
But even after such a search
There is much to do to relationship form
He really wants to prove his worth
It’s a different battle starting
With heart filled over the brim
So happy, warm and contented
He has a new passion within
Can’t let go
Won’t let go
Want you to know
Want to know
I won’t let go
In our forty nights
In our forty days
I keep finding more love
Much more love for you
Love you in every way
Can’t let go
Won’t let go
Want you to know
Want to know
I won’t let go
Ohhh my heart
This is just the start
Loving you together
Love when we’re apart
This is only the start
Can’t let go
Won’t let go
Want you to know
Want to know
I won’t let go
All that I need
In a you and a me
All that I am
I give to you free
I give you for free
Can’t let go
Won’t let go
Want you to know
Want to know
I won’t let go
In a cab to see you
Think of our first touch
Nervous, excited
It means so much
I can’t think straight
It means the end of apart
Feeling warm together
The second stage start
The phase when you know
More and more and more
You know I love you
That you are my “what for”
A reason for it all
A muse to inspire me
The ascent without fall
Can see your face
The fit of your hand
Wrapped in each other
Everything as planned
A single tear rolls down my cheek
Lying in bed no will to wake
Thinking of you and that you’re not here
For all the difference it will make
There’s happiness deep within me
A sense that we can be whole
That you are my forever one
That my quest has found its goal
My heart heaves and I sigh
My body aches for a lack of you
My mind races through all you are
Agitated, addicted, nothing to do
No way to scratch the itch
Nothing to do to slake the thirst
Being in love is to be blessed
But in your absence it’s like being cursed
Headphones on, the stairs I descend
Dreaming of the working days end
Step onto empty littered street
With no one around to greet
Turn and head for the northern tube
Past the fractured bus stop queue
Pause for coffee to ease morning low
Attempt to break the silence with hello
The barista doesn’t want to know
Hands over the cup and leaves you contactless now go
Train filled with vacant stares
Commuters who aren’t really there
Minds away from where they are
Thoughts of escape to take them off afar
Grey bubbles passing from A to Z
Repeated patterns from first breath to bed
Eyes fixed on the slatted floor,
Standing, waiting, but what for?
Didn’t we all want more?
Cold and contactless huddled lonely by the door
How many souls wake
On Valentines day
And wish the next
Twenty four hours go away
The focus on lovers
Plans to be open hearted
Depresses the lonely
Or where love has departed
Those people see gaps
A lack of love, card or cure
For their emptiness feeling
The pain they endure
For them no red roses
No chocolate treat
No dinner together
No-one for a secret meet.
They’re reminded they’re solo
With a partner vacancy
Their independence questioned
As spinster complacency.
You must find someone
To find your real purpose
Shout the masses and billboards
So loud that it hurts us.
If you wake on the fourteenth
Without significant others
Seemingly lonesome
Don’t hide under the covers
Go out and stand tall
Look your friends in the eye
You’re amazing, just you
You don’t need a guy
Or a girl or a partner
Unless that’s what you choose
And even then couples
Mix joy and the blues
So remember right now
Candied versions of love
Are not the reality
Cos the reality’s tough
You decide what you want
Be strong, sweet or sappy
Don’t let others decide
What you need to be happy
There will come a time, you’ll see
When love won’t be a source of fear
There’s a future where you’ll be free
To open your heart to someone near
The scars of aching breaks and falls
Can heal and hurt be wiped clean
Believe in a love that never stalls
Trust, you’ll find what life can mean
Quest for Love 
Love Listens