Choose a positive path
Wretched conflict
You should have
But you couldn’t
You were too swept up in being you to realise
That you shouldn’t
Have said what you said
Meant what you did
I’d have been better off running
I wish that I’d hid
This news that would hurt you
I tried to protect
Now it’s wretched conflict
Our relationship wrecked
You will rue this day
Your time has been called
She’s started a fight
The end of your world
She’s said things in anger
That cannot be unsaid
Words like “we’re done
Now reside in your head
She’s questioned your love
Labelled you liar and worse
So now regardless of a make up
Your bond now holds the curse
Of questionable foundation
Twists in the honest base
That will sap all efforts to build
An insipid disease laying waste
To the pillars of beauty
The care you’d overseen
The warmth in your coupling
How together you’d been
Your hurt and your anguish
Corrode the heart at your core
She’s called time on your hope
All promise is lost, “us” is no more
She’s hidden from view
Such that no one can see
The brilliance and light
That’s apparent to me
The world taught her to hide
She dons a daily disguise
To keep a lid on her fire
But I’ve looked into her eyes
Locked on so she can’t
Pass for one of the masses
She has superpowers, just look
Past her Clark Kent glasses
In spite of little support
And no one having belief
She’s developed and grown
Her own commander in chief
She’s marshalling her forces
She’s cresting the wave
She can and she will
This is her world to save
Are you hanging up your stockings
Are you decorating your tree
Are you worried about presents
Then you’ll be feeling Christmassy
Have you sent a million letters
Have you ordered a mega turkey
Have you plans to see your parents
Then you’ll be feeling Christmassy
When you gather around your parcels
Kids and adults, will all agree
After a night when Santa visits
You can’t help but feel Christmassy
When the dramas all unfolded
Gifts and tales exchanged lovingly
Look at the memories you’ve created
The warm glow of being Christmassy
The crash
Falling
Knocked off balance
Unforeseen
From hidden spot
Corner concealed
Has come a hammer blow
And I’m forced to yield
She’s said we are done
She says “you don’t have time”
To have her in my life
Time enough to make her mine
Hours of texting
Round and round
Now she’s said fuck off
And gone to ground
Heart ripped
Mind a mess
Cannot think
Can’t see what’s best
Don’t want to give up
Do feel what I’ve felt
But should I wait
For this ice age to melt?
There’s rage and fire
Hate and upset
She’s hurting like me
This cannot end, not yet
Falling end over end
Out of control
Don’t know what to do
To make her feel whole
Believe
With trust comes happiness
If trust is rewarded with loyalty
Believe in those close to you
Invest love and respect in them
Communicate difficulties
Make good the poor patterns of the past
Hold hands intimately and give
Let go the learned behaviour
Forget distrust for the trusted
Accept that pain may follow
But to trust is to connect
Connecting leading to belonging
Community, family, love
Believe
When you’re raw, it’s hard
Hard to keep the tears in and the fears out
Days of happiness turned
On a few words.
The bright day falls to dark night
Emotions, heartache, take flight
Nothing you can do to make it right
Best to let it be.
Emerge from mist red
See what you could have done instead
Learn that what was said
Was born of love
I love you
But dare not say
Just in case you
You don’t feel that way
In case in time
I change my mind
And you don’t
Don’t feel that way
Stuck in traffic
No time to loose
Searching for side streets
Shortcuts to use
I set off hopeful
In plenty of time
But now I’m lost
I’m red light blind
Static, still
No closer to you
All avenues blocked
No way through
You are the reason
I got into my car
I wanted to see you
Didn’t seem all that far
Cross town in an instant
Knock at your door
Hold and embrace
That’s what loves for
You only said you were lonely
You just needed a friend
Now I’m here stuck in traffic
Will this jam never end
Ah slowly we are moving
This line in the night
I’m crawling towards you
The end is in sight
At last it’s our corner
Your street and your home
I’ve made it I’m here
You’re no longer alone
I’m telling you softly
Through action and deed
I’m here for you
Whatever you need
I’ll get out of my comfort
I’ll drive for hours and more
You are my sweetheart
The one I adore
Brain misfiring
I’m overwhelmed today
Well laid, patterned, plans
Have all gone astray.
Blame me, be unkind
Anxious attack on self
Clawingly undermined
Debilitated mental health.
In this repeated loop,
Very few can find,
Me, let alone a route
To escape an erratic mind.
Unstable, this is why
Why I’m left alone
Who would take this?
This wretched human home
Quest for Love 
Love Listens