Choose a positive path
Imperfect day, imperfect night
Images of her confound my sight
Her scent, her voice, evoke so much
Above all else, I miss her touch
Skin to skin, cheek to cheek
Hand in hand, her touch I seek
A long embrace, a fleeting kiss
Side by side in bed, it’s this I miss
We got so close, we meant so much
A perfect love, a perfect touch
Slow and gentle tear in our fabric
Runs from edge to core
Torn from side to side
One made two, together no more
In the moments after parting
Frayed seams reaching out
The two still fit perfectly
A match, a marriage, doubt
We are made of the same cloth
Should two halves not make a whole?
Why separate? Why not mend?
In tearing what was the goal?
Walking surrounded by strangers
Sat at home with the kids watching tv
Working at the office in teams of colleagues
But not one of them ever sees me
I could change my face they wouldn’t comment
Transform my world they wouldn’t care
Be another person they wouldn’t notice
It’s like they aren’t aware I’m even there
I observe their every movement
Discuss the ins and outs, what they do
Pour over their every tiny foible
This is a one way tunnel I’m walking through
It’s lonely at home in my kitchen
I’m lonely in the office back at work
I’m lonely when friends surround me
So lonely, so empty, it hurts
Gentle smile
Walking through London’s teaming streets
Flashed lashes
Is that what she does to everyone she meets
Intimate moment
Brilliant light blinding against dark commuting plight
Fleeting beauty
The chance of joy on this lonely lonesome night
A visit to one who’s love comes with condition and at a cost
A reminder of a mother supportive but now lost
A day to get through waters troubled by staying at the surface
Doing what can be done to not let in negative emotions for no purpose
It’s confusing that you’re never
Going to make the time
To listen to my problems
I’ll take it as a sign
That the care you have is selfish
Aimed at you and you alone
You don’t want strong relations
You can’t build a happy home
You’ve told me I’m not caring
You’ve said I have to raise my game
But if one of us is failing
Then you’re the one to blame
You could have asked me how I’m doing
Could have made more space for me
Instead you started hurling insults
You passed out pain so willingly
Now I’ve seen what you are doing
I can’t rest until we are done
From now our bond is broken
I’m off, away from this selfish one
It’s the first time I’ve seen it
Maybe I’ve felt it forever
She’s just like my ex
We cannot be together
How have I missed the signals
Why couldn’t I see the signs
She’s not what I am after
To her nature I’ve been blind
Don’t think she has an idea
That this pattern’s a pattern
But she heard all I had to say
And knows this will matter
I’ve seen this repeated movie
The end of burning flames
We cannot go on any further
I can’t cope with rerun games
You walk right at me
Trying to prove some thing
Make me crash or adjust
Trying to score a win
You’ve set your look
You think you are mean
You’re ready for a reaction
But I’m not like anyone you’ve ever seen
I’m calmer than you are angry
Out of me, you’ll never get a rise
Your antics can’t provoke me
My inner power is my surprise
I step aside, give you some distance
Here’s the win your ego desired
You can raise your head this morning
While you slowly wither inside.
When the rain falls hard
From a dark brooding sky
It’s you I want to shelter
Even now. I don’t know why?
We’ve not been together
We’ve been so far apart
But it’s you in my head
When I feel low in my heart
What we had was an epic
That rolls on beyond its time
You define real belonging
I was yours and you were mine
I huddle in our shadow
And take comfort from the cold
That even though we ended
Our love does not feel old
There beneath my consciousness
It’s wrapped around my soul
So that when I’m losing hope
I feel it renew my life’s goal
Of finding someone as good
Finding someone just as true
Lifting her into my arms
And loving her instead of you
I appreciate life
It’s getting better
I appreciate you
As we get closer
I appreciate family
And feeling supported
I appreciate hope
Looking for the good
I appreciate people
All shapes and sizes
I appreciate my luck
In having all I have
I appreciate love
In all it’s many guises
I appreciate a friend
I’ll try to be one too
I appreciate the sunshine
Happiness and humour
I appreciate the rain
Making me stronger
I appreciate the wicked
I’ll watch and learn their lessons
I appreciate the meek
Quietly going about their day
I appreciate peace
With so many warring nations
I appreciate being nourished
With so many without what they need
I appreciate my power
To make life something special
I appreciate the time
To create something new
Quest for Love 
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